Hakimi Zamali: practically imperfect in every way*

How many times have you heard people say 'Go ahead, indulge yourself. Give yourself a treat once in a while'. I know I've heard it often enough for me to actually embrace that philosophy. Maybe a little too often that I took it too seriously that now it has gone from indulgence to pure gluttony.

Take yesterday for example. I had 2 thosais for breakfast. Then I went out to KLCC and while waiting for friends to arrive, I had a Milo McFlurry. While watching Madagascar 2, I had a large popcorn. For lunch, I ate salmon teppanyaki and chicken something something, and edamame. After that while lazing ourselves at Dome, I had an ice blended drink with chocolate honeycomb. When I got back, my brother was home so my mom made my favourite cucur. Then for dinner my dad suggested JM Biryani House, whose Mee Bandung is the best in the world.

That was indulgence alright. I was indulging my gluttony.

There goes my diet. Like there was one.

Alter Ego: You know it's amazing. Every time I ask you to do something you always manage to screw it all up.

Ego: And yet, you continue to ask me!

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I need to confess.

Because someone wrote somewhere that confession is good for the soul.

Here is my confession.

I have a compulsion. A compulsion to love something that I hate, and somehow that hatred will always find its way back into that love-hate relationship that I have with that something.

I think I need to take a time off to see a doctor about this self-destructive behaviour.



*a quick reference to Mary Poppins